everyday i wake up and my life really feels pointless i have felt sad for a long time but before i used to have dreams and now i dont see a future anymore. when i try to imagine the future everything looks blank like im not going to be in it. i know some of you will think im some dumb teenager looking for attention but im 21 years old and ive been feeling like this for as long as i could remember. theres never a day that doesnt go by that my family or friends or strangers dont say something negative about my weight, they seem to think that i am oblivious to the fact that im obese so they mention it over and over again. my grades have gone to **** because more and more sad everyday and i cry out of nowhere because it hurts to be here and see how much i bother others. i dont want to come out of my room because i dont want people to see me. i tried telling my mom how ive been feeling but she just tells me to pray or to just get over it. shes the only reason why i havent killed myself yet. i cant really talk to anyone about this because they all tell me the same thing that im pretty and smart and i have a bright future ahead of me but i know their lying and theyre just saying that so i can shut up and stop crying. i just cant describe this overwhelming feeling thats suffocating me that it takes away my strength to keep living. its like im stuck in a hundred feet deep hole and i keep trying to call my way out but something keeps pushing me down. im tired of thinking people care and they end up proving me wrong everytime. my “best friend went off and got married without saying a word to me until 2 days later all she cares about is her boyfriend i cant even talk to her without him calling her every 5 minutes she could just ignore his calls but she doesnt. i have a boyfriend too and hes perfect but im afraid of the pain i might cause him if i end up doing it, he wants me to lose weight so his family wont make fun of me or him and so i could be happy. but i think i want to go for reasons that go beyond my weight i want to go because everyone will be better off forgetting i ever existed
Hey dolls. Kourtney and I hit the beach hard for an intense workout during my time in Miami and I just wanted to share a few pics. We may look like two angry football players but that water sure is pretty! LOL.
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absolutely love this pic Khlo, u two ladies look soooo beautiful. I love how naautural u both look face hair and body toooooooo gorgeous
everyday i wake up and my life really feels pointless i have felt sad for a long time but before i used to have dreams and now i dont see a future anymore. when i try to imagine the future everything looks blank like im not going to be in it. i know some of you will think im some dumb teenager looking for attention but im 21 years old and ive been feeling like this for as long as i could remember. theres never a day that doesnt go by that my family or friends or strangers dont say something negative about my weight, they seem to think that i am oblivious to the fact that im obese so they mention it over and over again. my grades have gone to **** because more and more sad everyday and i cry out of nowhere because it hurts to be here and see how much i bother others. i dont want to come out of my room because i dont want people to see me. i tried telling my mom how ive been feeling but she just tells me to pray or to just get over it. shes the only reason why i havent killed myself yet. i cant really talk to anyone about this because they all tell me the same thing that im pretty and smart and i have a bright future ahead of me but i know their lying and theyre just saying that so i can shut up and stop crying. i just cant describe this overwhelming feeling thats suffocating me that it takes away my strength to keep living. its like im stuck in a hundred feet deep hole and i keep trying to call my way out but something keeps pushing me down. im tired of thinking people care and they end up proving me wrong everytime. my “best friend went off and got married without saying a word to me until 2 days later all she cares about is her boyfriend i cant even talk to her without him calling her every 5 minutes she could just ignore his calls but she doesnt. i have a boyfriend too and hes perfect but im afraid of the pain i might cause him if i end up doing it, he wants me to lose weight so his family wont make fun of me or him and so i could be happy. but i think i want to go for reasons that go beyond my weight i want to go because everyone will be better off forgetting i ever existed